Alongside the catchy lyrics of the title of this post, I’ve also been using Lamentations 3:22-23 (a surprisingly encouraging book, considering its title!) as my motto lately:
Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
The ‘new every morning’ bit is just as well, because every day lately I’ve resolved that this will be the day when I [insert productive goal here]. And most days, it hasn’t been. Most days have been like the one before, where I get a few good hours in the morning, where my brain cooperates and I get stuff done, then it’s more or less worn itself out, and I spend much of the rest of the day wrestling with anxiety and exhaustion. That’s apart from the days where the negative stuff just takes over full stop and the whole day feels like a battle for sanity. I can’t listen to yarny podcasts or get on Ravelry without experiencing massive anxiety, and blogging has just been impossible.
I have, however, made sure to take lots of pictures of flowers!
On the plus side, the ‘good’ hours of the morning are getting longer, and I might just be emerging from the cave I seemed to fall into at the beginning of May. Not making any promises (see above about productive goals) but baby steps, all the way. I’ve restructured various work things so that I can get them done, rather than sitting staring at my list, feeling useless. We’re settling into a pattern for keeping home tidy, which makes a huge difference to my state of mind, and I’m slowly digging out all the personal things that have been on my list for months. I’m finishing more books (audio only, still, as my visual concentration span is shot to pieces), and I’m lining up more titles to take on holiday with us.
Some people might consider one audiobook app sufficient. I appear to have no self-control when it comes to libraries!
One of the things I need to do is buy a new notebook/diary/planner. I’ve got Too Many Thoughts, too many things to do, and far too many craft plans on the go at once. Things are scattered and difficult to tackle, so I’m casting around for a system that will give me enough structure while still being flexible. I’m leaning towards giving Bullet Journalling a proper, serious go, to include planning my Bible readings better, bringing my wandering eating back on track, and help me track those hundred little things that have to be done each day. One of the things mental health problems rob you of is the ability to see yourself clearly. All you see is the negative, the bad, the stuff you didn’t do, because you just felt too awful to tackle it. If you follow me on Instagram, you will seen my awesome Post-Its board (now in hibernation*), which is WONDERFUL for knowing what you’ve achieved, as well as what you’ve got to do. I think Bullet Journalling might do the same for the personal side of things, with a few modifications.
*It’s a great tool for when you have tight deadlines that HAVE to be met, and too many jobs to get done in that time. You have to break things down, think smaller, and it makes it easier to plough through them. But it’s not an ‘everyday’ listing tool really, and not great for my personal stuff. I mean, I’m busy, but not THAT busy, and I want something that will fit easily in a small notebook!
Projects! Actual progress!
I particularly need to get my crafting life sorted. The flat is covered with works in progress, random supplies, books and patterns, and without order, I don’t feel I can start creating again. It’s not that I’m not finishing things, it’s that I’m not recording them, so I’m not giving myself the credit. Time to change that! Above is the Frankencardi (finished!), Nearly Black, and my Trailing Flowers shawl, all of which need properly photographing and blogging. There are projects in the bottom of the wardrobe, more in the bottom of the sideboard, yet more under the sofa and a couple behind our giant corn plant. And yet I keep telling myself that only one is suitable for taking out and about with me! I think I’m going to have to hibernate some of them, work on others in a more concentrated way, and try to reclaim order around here. I’ve got too many lovely things to let them languish in our garage.
Do any of you use Bullet Journalling? Or another named system for organising your life? Tell me about it! I’ve almost finished my current notebook, so it’s a chance to start fresh and I’m open to ideas!
Linking up with Ginny, because crafters are the most organised people I know, and I appreciate all the help I can get 🙂